Carrie Wiley Death, Obituary – The broken bits of my heart are everywhere. I am having a hard time coming to grips with the fact that I lost her because the pain is so overpowering. Carrie Wiley, I already miss you in ways that are difficult to put into words. Even though we just talked the day before, it’s hard for me to wrap my head around the reality that you’re already gone. You have been my closest friend for close to three decades, and the gap that your loss creates in my life is difficult to put into words. Even though I can empathize with the extent of the suffering you must have been going through, finding out that you ended your own life is still quite upsetting.
Now that I’ve lost a loved one, I must travel through the phases of sorrow, which is a path that seems extremely intimidating to me. If only I could rewind the clock and spend just one more day with you, I would be content. The sobs won’t stop coming, and the pain in my chest won’t go away no matter how much I try to ignore it.
I had pictured a future in which you would move back to Tacoma, and we would have endless opportunities to spend time together. The whole idea that anything like this could never take place kills me beyond description. The truth does not alter regardless of how many times it is stated or how many arguments are presented. Just two days ago, I posted a post about the suicide hotline, and now I find myself struggling with the same agony that I sought to prevent in other people by sharing the post about the suicide hotline.
If you are having trouble and are reading this, please don’t hesitate to ask for help. Your value is not contingent on the severity of your suffering in any way. Your life does matter, and there is a vast amount of love and support just waiting for you to take advantage of it.
Carrie Nadine, may you find the serenity that you have been seeking, even though the void that your passing has left behind is one that will never be totally replaced.